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We still used to say our his hellos and hows your day to each other… everyday… even after our bumpy ride of our lives and now you have  a new passenger at your side and you confessed that he is far more than better and loved  i try to contain myself  my feelings on that time and not to try to show it in front of you what i was feeling inside by that time  and now  i  confessed  to  you all
my world crashed as if i wanted to explode and fade away as the air pass by, you inconsiderate manner lead me to my loneliest days and nights and the thing is.. theres nothing i could do to ease the pain inside of me….. i screamed for help no one answers… maybe it could just maybe ,I’m bound to be lonely for the moment and maybe for a long time .tried disclose feeling  to a friend they  cant do much since we are apart now loosing so many people in a short period of time
is really devastating though I’m still holding on a hope that maybe in time i will feel loved again perhaps i don’t need anyone to help me perhaps i just need to learn to help myself first so if this come again i will not be plunged to the abyss of loneliness  no more .

one time a friend arrived …I accepted  him in my arms warmly and understand for what he may have on that time,moments were created and deepenned understamding to each other ……

Let me clear it ain’t my lover but a "long lost dear friend" who i shared intimate moment when i was younger compared now….

everyday was fun!!! fun!!! fun?!?……………………….

concentration on myself lessen due to i was drawn my attention to a new endeavor since longing to get in touch,to sync my beat w/ him and though i failed to follow.. concern folk mention there comments on the situation though respected my action that in the latter part i may choice to continue or not ….. vibes was correct that i feared to happen in the 1st place so i secluded my thoughts to grasp what myself may want to happen

love …….. achievement …….. help …….. truth………….

boils in the dish sauted w/ confusion and poured w/ hope and satisfaction ……….. out come?

to let go ………? to give up?…….. saddened feelings calls my heart unrested but my will must show to be alone again ….. maybe for a time can say when but most recommended by my though refused by my heart …………

hello and farewell hope i can see you soul again just like when i met you before , hope hatred can be turn to understanding and recognizing the enevitable truth. I HAVE LOST YOU . BUT YOU DIDNT LOSE ME.